This completion comes just as a different journey is about to begin! That is a whole other blog, though. 😉
I always find it interesting when I have something on my mind, or I write something here, or I talk about something with someone, and then go to church to hear a sermon or Bible lesson on the same subject. I have been planning this particular blog for a week or so. It will be about watching for God signs, and my journey to do a better job listening to God.
This morning, at church, a new series started. Our pastor spoke about “who is the captain of your ship”. It seems a bit like what I have been going through!!
First, he spoke about Noah. Noah was on a boat, and Noah did whatever God told him to do. Noah was a righteous man; following God’s commands.
Then, he spoke about Jonah. Jonah was told to do something by God and he said, “no”. That’s all. Just “no”.
Last, he spoke about Simon in the book of Luke. Jesus told Simon to put out the nets and fish. Simon said he had already done so with no catch, but he agreed to do it because Jesus had told him to.
During the little journey I have been on, I have found myself trying more and more to listen to God, and to follow what He is telling me to do. I don’t know that I have ever told God “no” (like Jonah). I may have simply not heard Him, but I can’t remember ever just saying “no”.
I have, also, done things simply because it is what he has asked. “I don’t see the point, but I will because it’s what You want.” (Like Simon.)
I find my biggest problem to be paying attention. I don’t know what’s worse: not listening when being told to do something, or just never recognizing you are being told to do something… I am finding that I am doing a better job honing my listening skills. When I am listening and paying attention, I do my best to do what I am “told” (like Noah).
Here is where the story REALLY starts…
A bit over a month ago we visited my husbands mother for a week. Then, we went to my hometown for a day. I did not want to go. Every since my Dad died, going home has been nothing more than a chore. I LOVE to see my friends, but I have not gotten to just go visit since prior to my Dad getting sick. It was worse after he died, of course, because I was always on official business. I had to open the estate. I had to handle the estate. I had to close the estate. Before I could do any of that, I had to try to find a sister I have never met. I was always going home for a couple of days; just long enough to “take care” of something.
I hated it. I hated it not because I was bratty and didn’t want do the grown up things, but because it was such an emotional drain. My father and I were very close and all this “after he died business” was not what I wanted to be doing. If you have had to do this before you, you know what I mean.
The last trip I decided I had had enough. I was sick to my stomach thinking about going the house. Everything had been handled, except his house. First, we had wanted to fix it up, then we decided we were selling it. (My Father had given the house (and everything in it) to my husband and I a couple years before his death, so we didn’t have to sorry about probate.) I didn’t have the nerve to actually put it on the market, so it sat. Then, people began breaking in and breaking things.
All decisions regarding the house were very hard for me for many reasons. It wasn’t just his house. It was where he had lived for 30 years. My sister and I grew up there, and it was where our mother had raised us until she died. WE had many family and friend memories there. The entire house was filled with family belongings, but what do you do with all of them when everyone already has all their own stuff!??!
I was done, and I was selling. That was it! We spent the day in West Virginia, and we headed home.
The next morning my phone rang. It was a West Virginia number, but I did not know who it was. I answered the call, and, to my surprise, there was a lady on the other end who wanted to buy my Dad’s house.
At the exact time I decided to sell the house, I got this random call. Did it get my attention?? YES!
We went back for about price for a little while. We had hoped to get more for it, and had been told we could, previously. Now, when I did some asking around, I was finding that the final price she had given me was MORE than fair and I should “take it and run”.
So, I did.
After talking to everyone I felt I needed to, we all agreed, and I made the deal. Twelve days later I was in closing on the sale of my Dad’s house; our childhood home.
It was a hard visit, but it was one that had to be made. With my husband leaving soon, and me having the boys to take care of, alone, The worry associated with the house just wasn’t worth it anymore.
While I am sad that it is gone, the heavy burden has been lifted. I am very appreciative of this. Selling the house gives my heart and mind extra room to focus on what is important.
Colossians 3:2 ~Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things
***McCrazy Daily Lesson: I have said it before, but it is, again, relevant; life is SO much less stressful when we let go of the wheel, and ask God to take it. We cannot mess up if He is the “Captain” of our life. Some decisions are still hard, and some decisions may not be what WE want to do, but we can take heart in knowing that it is what HE wants. We are here to serve Him and do His will. When things get in the way of that we must “weed out” the distractions. If we aren’t sure how, all we have to do is LISTEN! He will help!***
The day before I signed the papers to sell the house, I went to visit my Dad’s grave. While visiting, I opened his Bible. It open to 1 Corinithians 15:55,56 (This drew my attention because he had it underlined.) O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. ( Verse 57: But thanks be to God, which giveth us victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.)
He WILL talk to us; all we have to do is listen.
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